20/02/2023
I don't know how to color inside the lines.
Ok, maybe I do KNOW how.
But I find it incredibly difficult. And...perhaps more accurately, have no problem going outside the lines – just because.
Before you wonder where this is coming from, let me explain.
I invited my Thrive Circle clients to take part in a "play" challenge this month, to create time for and prioritize PLAY – not as a reward, but as a daily tending practice.
As part of that challenge, I sent everyone a paint by numbers set. And because I 📸practice what I teach, I ordered one for myself too.
It took my about 5 minutes to start going over the lines. Yes really.
And as I did, I started to pay attention to my thoughts as I did.
There were "shoulds" and maybes.
I should slow down.
Maybe if I was using the "right" size paint brush, I could stay inside the lines.
And then there were wonderings.
What if my allowing myself to go outside the lines was just an excuse. A way to keep myself from being "any good."
Was I self-sabotaging myself by not staying INSIDE the lines?
There were ALOT of thoughts.
And then I laughed.
Because friends, I like details. I like to plan. And I've discovered more and more that I benefit from structure.
But something else is also true.
I like to see the structure, the details, and the plan – and then choose to be ME anyway. To do things MY way.
Could that get in my way sometimes, yes. Absolutely.
But does embodying that truth allow me to be more aligned and true to myself. Yes. 100%.
I'm sharing this with you because my hunch is that maybe you do this too.
You know what makes you YOU. But you keep trying to "fix" or "manage" yourself to try to be something ELSE. To "stay inside the lines."
And the more fixing and staying inside the "lines" you do – the more the REAL you gets hidden. Hidden from others. But also, hidden from yourself.
Is this ringing true?
My nudge to you is to reflect and notice: what TRUTH about YOU might you allow yourself to acknowledge?
And what might it be like to stop trying to hide that truth from others? From yourself?
Share this post with someone who could use a nudge to color outside the lines.
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