07/08/2024
I look around me and have so much to be grateful for. I was walking on the treadmill earlier today and thought to myself, “I’m honestly thankful I have two legs that allow me to walk.” Sounds silly, but sometimes those realizations can help bring us back to the present moment, rather than giving energy to things and people that do not serve us.
It’s been a while since I’ve done a reflection post and now that we are more than half way into 2024, it’s important for me to reflect at who I’ve been and what I’ve done.
My past doesn’t define me, but it sure has shaped me. I’ve spent a lot of my 20’s behind closed doors in tears. I’ve let people walk all over me and for as tough as I am, my heart has empathized kindly, knowing I’ll never get the apology I deserve.
I didn’t like who I was years ago. If you followed me from way back when, you probably would watch my stories and think, “Why does she always seem so angry…” Well, because I was. Angry at life. Angry at my bank account. Angry that no matter what I did, it was always wrong and never right. Angry that it always seemed like no matter how hard I tried, it was never my turn.
Now being 28, my mindset is completely different. I feel lighter. I aim to be kind to not seek in return. I aim to be the person I portray myself to be online in real life. I’m typically not the most put together person, but one thing has always remained the same, well a few. When I’m told, “No,” I find the answer to be yes with time. I give everyday my all and some will never truly comprehend what it’s like to be in front of a camera everyday, regardless of how I truly feel. My heart is my best asset and those that don’t want to understand me, will always make me a problem, but guess what? Everyday I learn something new, big, or small. How can you lose when you’re open for more opportunity, bigger and better things, old doors closing to new doors opening, etc? This life is what we make of it. The more we realize we are what we spend time on, the more we will never have to question why our life is exactly the way it is. Take some time to reflect today, if you can. It helps me start the week off on a good 📝
