01/08/2023
In loving memory of Einat Hayak💫
It's been 2 weeks since dear Einat left this world.
As I write, I still feel this heaviness in my heart as I did that day and words might not flow through me as I wish they would, but I want the world to know there was a young woman named Einat and that she was very dear to me, as to many others.
She was a sweet young woman with a good soul, caring and deeply passionate about dance.
Einat first came to my ballet classes at Studio Naim in November of 2022, less than a year ago. She was dressed in her ballet uniform (not a common discipline in the Israeli dance scene), her hair up in a beautiful ballet bun, impeccable yet with a great sense of style, a bit of punk/rock/chic, which obviously drew my attention from that day forth, she was respectful and rarely missed class.
She was beautiful and very special.
Over the very short span of less than a year, we developed a good connection, she would come to me seeking advice or just a good talk before and after class, but due to recent past experiences as an instructor, I drew my limits. It's one of the things I hope to come to terms with in time.
Grief isn't a stranger to me as I'm sure to all of us. Losing a family member or dear friend is deeply painful. The pain doesn't go away. It's just something you learn from and to live with. It teaches you to be more present, to feel more and to love more. This loss, to me, in two weeks has taught me that and more, but the hardest part now, the tragic loss of a student this way, is coming to terms with this absence, this empty space in every lesson...every week... forever.
Grief has also taught me that the last person who would want us to be in such a dark state is the one we grieve for. Therefore, I chose to live through her absence each class with more devotion, more love and more joy, in the hope that some of it will reach her wherever she may be now, to honor her, so that her spirit continues to radiate in every classroom, every stage, in every student, in every step and in every music note, until we meet again...
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Thank you to my dear friend Olga Barmina Olga Barmina Photography for these beautiful memories I will cherish forever.
And finally and most importantly, I want to thank Einat's family for allowing me into their home, for allowing me to share this story and these beautiful photos of her. My thoughts and prayers continue to be with you through this difficult process.