13/07/2023
My Journey continued…
Nothing in this 3D physical reality is linear, changing your body composition - building muscle, losing bodyfat, rewiring your brain, rewiring your ANS, healing trauma..
Breaking my spine for the third time brought me to a place I had never been before, the darkest and scariest place I’ve ever been. In the spiritual realm it is called the dark night of the soul. I thought I had hit my lowest point years before that but this injury brought it to a whole new level. Looking a neurosurgeon in the face while being told I may not walk again didn’t phase me but what came after brought me on a journey of physical and emotional turmoil and in turn, healing.
Something inside me, a knowing, told me I would be ok and to trust my own inate healing powers, to trust my body. I did and it hasn’t let me down, why? Because I believed, mind , body and soul I would heal and nothing would stop me. I was willing to do absolute ANYTHING to heal as it felt like my whole life had just been paused and taken away from me, everything I loved, my training, my livelihood, my sanity.
My body was in a dorsal vagal state, deep in a sympathetic flow, I was in horrendous pain and at some points my belief started to waver. I am human right? Being in that state for so long I started to dissociate, become deeply depressed, full of fear and anxiety, despair, severe panic attacks, became bitterly angry and resentful, I hit the top of the bellcurve (I will explain what this is later). Why did this have to happen to me, yet again!
I stuck to what I know works, science (I did question this at times but it doesn’t lie)! As hard and as dark a place that this took me I kept going, believing and implementing all go the tools I had to heal, which included -
* Parasympathetic breathing
* Changed my nutrition to Carnivore only
* Fasted - two 36 hour fasts per week
* Quality Deep Sleep
* Monitored HRV
* Alpha/ Theta Meditation
* Hertz frequencies
* Infrared Sauna Therapy
* Cold Water Therapy
* Electromagnetic Therapy
* Physical Therapy
* Acupuncture
* Walking (I had no balance so this wasn’t easy)
* Squatting - holding the kitchen sink
* Split squats - holding the stairs
* Spinal Decompression
These are some of the modalities I used and as you can see it is quite extensive, it became my full time job, my everything went into healing, 100% of my energy.