08/08/2023
Yesterday was a bad day.
Iโve been really down the last few days, havenโt felt like myself & my internal dialogue has not been very niceโฆ๐ซ
& it all hit me.
I didnโt want to get out of bed & definitely didnโt want to go to the gym. But I knew it couldnโt possibly make me feel worse.
I cried before the gym & even better I cried in the gym between sets ๐๐ฝ๐
I purposely chose not to put myself in a position where I would get frustrated with myself cause I wasnโt hitting PBS or even lifting what I usually would - this would have triggered me.
So I did about 4 exercises, lowered my weights & my only intention was to get out of my head, be present and move my body.
I came out thinking that was my worst session in a long time but actuallyโฆ it was a success.
It did not solve everything but I 110% felt better than I did going in.
Things it reminded me :
- Sometimes you have to show up for yourself even when you donโt want to
- Youโll never regret going but I would have regretted a missed session
& MOST IMPORTANTLYโฆ
training for your mental health >>>over anything else ๐ง ๐ค
