05/08/2022
How honest are you with yourself?
This is a question that I have been asking myself on a regular basis recently.
Why?
Because for everything that we do or don't do, we have an explanation.
We have a reason.
And it makes total sense to us.
But not always are we 100% honest with ourselves.
I have been observing my behavior as well as my explanations for it for a while now.
And it is really interesting to see how our mind sometimes plays tricks on us.
We can always justify why we behave in a certain way in a relationship.
Why we are angry, disappointed, or upset.
Why we decided not to exercise on a certain day.
Why we did not speak up or prioritized ourselves at a certain moment.
Or why we did not do this "scary" thing that deep inside of our heart we know lights up.
And, trust me, it always makes so much sense in our head.
So we believe the things that we say to ourselves.
It is easy.
It is comfortable.
It makes us feel good.
But when we look beneath it (and it takes courage and lots of honesty), we see that so often these explanations are just protection.
We don't want to admit to ourselves (and others) that sometimes we are just afraid to fail.
To be alone.
To leave our comfort zone.
We do not want to admit that beneath the anger, there is often a fear.
Fear of losing something.
Fear of not being loved.
And it takes time to see it.
It takes a lot of deep inner work to become aware of the stories we tell ourselves but it helps us to grow and become the person we want to become 💗