02/05/2026
This is a battle I’ve accepted in the last few weeks, because my goals have leveled up.
I’ve gained 5kg.
Fitness isn’t how lean you look, it’s what your body can consistently do.
One version of me looks fitter; the other version performs better, recovers faster, and is stronger.
We all compare aesthetics— but my focus is output and those two things are not always aligned.
Trying to explain that one body is fitter than the other isn’t always easy.
Picture 1: December 2025
Calorie deficit. Depleted physique. Dehydrated. Training is limited. Strength is down. Mentally drained. Constantly low on energy. More prone to injury. This body is not operating well.
Picture 2: April 2026
Calorie surplus. Fully fueled. Strong. Able to train for hours. Recovering better. Performance improving. Still tired at times—but that comes with the workload, Solid mindset, an overall fitter body.
One day in the future it might boil down to how I look again but right now I’m training for performance.
I can train for Aesthetics, I’ve shown that! I was 88kg in 2017. Now I’m training to be an Ironman, it hits different. I need a body that works and can do hard s**t.