01/10/2026
We don’t always talk enough about our fears.
And this might sound like a really stupid or vain one… but I’m being completely vulnerable here.
Last year, I was the leanest version of myself. I was incredibly proud of the effort, discipline and time I put into achieving that goal.
Fast forward to now…
I’m 31 weeks pregnant and, if I’m honest, I feel very out of touch with my own body.
This isn’t a body or frame I’m used to being in. My body is no longer just mine it’s being shared. My hormones, energy levels, shape and abilities have changed in ways that are largely out of my control.
And sometimes I look back at my old physique and think…
Will I ever look like that again?
The rational side of me knows that version of me existed in a completely different chapter.
Will I look identical again? Probably not.
But that doesn’t mean I can’t build a new version of myself that brings me just as much pride.
I’ve continued training throughout my pregnancy. I’ve kept up my daily movement because mentally, I NEED that outlet.
But I’ve also had to let things go.
I’ve stopped pole classes, which are one of my happiest places. I can’t engage or use my core in the way I used to. I can’t chase fat loss, sit in a deficit or maintain the body fat percentage where I personally feel most confident and comfortable.
And I’d be lying if I said those changes haven’t affected me.
So instead, my focus has shifted.
Movement is medicine.
Holding onto strength matters.
Maintaining muscle matters.
Showing up in the ways I CAN matters.
Because everything I’m doing now isn’t about trying to hold onto my old body.
It’s about giving myself the strongest possible foundation for what comes next.
So yes, the changes to my physique have probably hit me harder than I’ve let on.
But I also know this is one chapter of my life.
Right now, my body is doing something completely different from anything I’ve ever asked of it before and I’m learning to respect that, even on the days I don’t completely recognise myself.
And when the time is right, I’ll get to meet another version of me.
A new mind.
A new body.
A new challenge.
2027 the rebuild and comeback is going to be something else. 🤍
