05/05/2025
Now this is a post I was contemplating to do. I’m going to be vulnerable and there may be some opinions out there, but this is how I’ve been feeling
Since finding out I’m pregnant it’s been a bit of a whirlwind. My plans for this year have completely changed and it’s taken me a while to accept that. As well as that it’s also been affecting me mentally which I didn’t realise until a couple of weeks in. Now diagnosed with prenatal depression I’m now getting help with therapy
Now believe me I am beyond grateful to be able to have kids. At one point I didn’t think I was able to, but now I know. I wasn’t planning to have kids for another 2-3 years but I guess things happen for a reason
Now…what I’m trying to get to - this has been affecting me mentally because all I’ve known for the last 5-6 years is fitness. Fitness has been my life. It got me from a really dark place where I was overweight, depressed, had terrible body dysmorphia, then I found myself again during Covid and lived and breathed fitness.
Cut to last year where I was in the best shape of my life. Mentally I was in a great place. I worked so hard on myself and I was so proud of what I built myself up to be
Cut to present day - I’ve been really struggling with my training again. I know I’m having to look after myself and baby but I feel a massive part of me has been temporarily taken away. And it’s really effected me. I feel I have no purpose with my training except to keep moving and stay as active as I can be but everything’s dialled back
Now I’m trying to find ways of enjoying training again. I’m telling myself at least 3 sessions in the gym is something. Also putting on my classes again has really made a difference. I feel like I’ve managed to claim that part of me back which feels amazing! I’m practicing being kinder to myself and reminding myself this is only temporary, and thinking of all the things I’ll be able to do next year - run4wales 10k races, Hyrox, all the things I loved last year
You’re not alone with how you feel. Your feelings are valid. Be kinder to yourself and remember all the hard work you’ve put in and are doing
