30/08/2025
I really enjoyed the 3 hour course I did this week, I enjoyed so much being part of something again! It reminded me of my training for the youth offending service and how much I loved that.
It made me realise how lost from the outside world I’ve become over the last 10 years , since Orla’s difficulties began and took over 🫶 She’s our whole world leaving us no time for anything else , not even each other at times 🫶
Reflecting on things though I think I’ve held it together so well over the years. There’s been no one who could of done the job I’ve done with Orla , no could be by her side at the endless hospital appointments or take care of all her daily/ nightly needs or do for her what I do every day and night because she needs her momma 💞
Orla needs me by her side almost 24/7 and as much as we appreciate the 20 hours in care help we get a month , I’d never dream of her doing any of it without me by her side 💞 I’m there for her all the way.
Being a full time carer really is more than a full time job. Even when Orla was at school , the little time you do have (if it isn’t taken up by appointments) that tiny bit of time you get to yourself , you , your mind and your body have to rest and recover quickly before you’re on full duty again.
A lot of us special needs parents live on the edge constantly and I don’t know how we do it 🙏💪🫶
I’m feeling so proud of myself for the happy and uplifting person I am because that has made my children such happy and uplifting people too 🥰🥰
We go through so much daily with Orla but we get through it daily and get her though it too 🙏
I believe the only thing to get her through all that she has to come is keeping her uplifted and happy (meaning acting like Me tumble or Ms Rachel 24/7 😂)
She has the most wonderful imagination and she really is the funniest little person ever 🥰 she gets down a lot every day with things out of her control but her her resilience and her personality soon shine back through. 💫
Although I lost myself from the outside world I’ve never lost myself from what matters the most ,my children 🫶🫶🫶
I love nothing more than our family world and the Kabuki world that Orla has introduced us too. I wouldn’t change it for the world I just wish we could make things better for our princess 💛💗💚