27/07/2026
I remember once when Nathan and I were sitting together and he asked me to tell him what I needed.
And I couldn’t actually bring myself to say the words out loud. I sobbed and choked and shut down because admitting to how I really felt made me feel like the world’s most inconvenient person.
For so much of my life, my emotion, my expression, my hormones, my sensitivity and my needs had been deeply inconvenient to the men I dated.
I swallowed my truth over and over and over again because it wasn’t welcome, honoured or heard. Ever.
In fact, it was the one thing that cost me connection more than anything else. It was shamed, ridiculed and dismissed as crazy.
When your rich emotional world and your deep sensitivity is seen as a burden - you very quickly learn that it’s easier to shove it all down, and eventually end up disappearing inside your own life.
You stop expressing yourself before anyone else has the chance to reject you. You become quieter and smaller and “easier” to love.
But that strategy comes at a huge cost - because a woman who’s suffocating her truth is also suppressing her joy, her playfulness, her sensuality and desire and aliveness.
Shes left with very little life force to pour back into nurturing the relationship because she’s so long using that energy to contain herself.
Emotional capacity is the greatest gift my partner has given to me. Our relationship is incredibly spacious and grace-filled and I have (very gradually) bloomed within it.
When I realised that I no longer had to spend my energy protecting myself from being “too much” - i finally had this newfound freedom to bring all of myself into the relationship, and because I feel so loved - even my painful, frustrated moments have found their healthiest expression.
🌝✨💫
