06/07/2024
29th Birthday, Physique Update and some Philosophy ๐๐ผ (swipe to the end to see me as a annoying little brat ๐น)
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The past year has probably been the hardest in a long time for my psyche.
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Getting personal here but:
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๐น We had a necessary but big move out of the childhood home, a lot of ups and downs
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๐น We had a passing in the close family which crippled everyone and the aftermaths with everything are still on going
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๐น I love being a Personal Trainer but hate being a Fitness Coach, and juggling these 2 physically and financially is becoming a mess
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๐น Getting busier with my business which is amazing but the messy inconsistency of the hours takes on toll on the spirit - only people in the industry seem to truly understand this
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๐น Having my fitness goals and literally dedicating each block of the day in
needing to fit in calories, workouts, getting in good sleep etc, day after day IS HARD. To the point that at this stage, you say no to a lot of things and people that donโt align with this.
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๐น Iโve lost the deep fire and passion for making music and making time has simply not been a priority anymore. This was always my first passion since I can remember.
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๐น Juggling being a personal trainer, fitness coach, online coach, content creator, natty bodybuilder, partner, son, man, friend and helping occasionally with caring in the family all whilst still having guilt free personal time is extremely difficult.
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Why have I written this?
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Content init.
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But also, that this will never be easy and the time will literally never be right.
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Iโm not even saying my situation is โbadโ Iโm just sharing my reality.
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I may complain on the surface about some of the above things because itโs a topic that makes a convo start, a bit of banter here and there.
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But deep down I canโt complain. There are always people in worse situations.
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But also itโs not a game of who has it worse. Everyone has their own troubles and own demons.
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That will never change, you just ride the waves of ups and downs.
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You just have to learn to become a better surfer ๐โโ๏ธ
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In the famous words of โฆ
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(In spirit not physically)