02/06/2026
For a long time, the “before and after” became my personality.
At first, it felt great. I was losing weight, getting stronger, getting compliments, and finally felt like I had something that made me different.
But the more validation I got, the more I chased it.
What started as improving my health slowly became pressure to maintain a version of myself that I thought made me worthy.
Food became stressful. Training became excessive. I was constantly thinking about what I was eating, how much I was training, and whether I was doing enough.
The irony is that even after all that change, I still didn’t feel like I was enough.
Now I still train. I still care about my body. I’m still competitive. I’m still an athlete.
But I care far more about what my body can do than trying to force it into a certain shape.
And honestly? Life is a lot more enjoyable when your entire self-worth isn’t tied to your body fat percentage 🤍
