02/08/2025
Growth 🌹
6years between both pics 🥲🫶
I was shocked when I found this first pic!
I barely recognise that girl 🥹
I might look fit and ‘toned’
But I hadn’t had a proper period in months,
Had consistent UTIs,
And needed external validation from others to feel loved and accepted.
I still see that little girl who was bullied at school for her weight ☹️
Who thought doing a body building competition would help build her self confidence.
But it knocked my confidence to the floor,
Even more when I placed last because the judges said I held too much fat on my lower body.
I had a coach at the time who told me to take steroids to get leaner but I refused.
I was constantly in my masculine energy of doing and never sat down to connect with myself and how I was feeling.
Fast forward 6 years ☺️
I’ve realised that what my body looks like is the least interesting thing about me!
This is not to say that there’s anything wrong with being lean,
But I’ve realised that I needed to deal with the s**t going on in my head first or I’d never be happy 🥰
What matters now to me is how I show up for myself every day,
When I show up for myself and tend to my own inner world, the more I can help others.
Isn’t that what life’s about?
I found more of a balance, connecting more with my feminine energy, not feeling guilty for resting and listening to my body.
Showing up for myself daily has helped me:-
Heal from a disease,
Find my soul family,
Discover my purpose,
Connect with the land and spiritual realm,
And grow a baby!
I realise now I don’t need validation from others to feel worthy,
I am worthy exactly as I am 💫
By showing up for myself I mean,
Following my heart,
Trusting myself,
Practicing yoga,
Meditation,
Sitting with my feelings,
Not drinking, eating, or training them away.
And most importantly working with the Vagus Nerve 💫🧚♀️
You can heal through anything,
All you have to do is believe 💓
