08/01/2021
Been ages since I’ve sat down to write - probably because I’ve been in a bit of a hole the past couple of weeks. 😑
Just flat out exhausted & burnt out. Which is pretty strange for January.
It’s supposed to be the month where motivation is free, and everyone gets a piece.
I’ve spoken to a few people over the past week that like me, are struggling a bit.
I, unsurprisingly, don’t have anything to say that will fix that unfortunately. I guess I’d just say to go easy on yourself.
It’s not your regular January.
I’m self aware enough to know I can’t tell anyone how to get through what we’re going through - but I have an idea of what helps me..
.and that’s just continuing to do stuff.
Do anything. Do something that reminds you that you still have even the slightest element of control.
If the news leaves me feeling anxious, I’m in control of going for a walk or run that’ll leave me feeling much lighter on the other end.
If being inside all day leaves me feeling a bit isolated, I’m in control of picking up the phone and giving a loved one a call to remind myself that I’m far from it.
If the frustration of f**king everything is leaving me feeling nothing but anger and despair, I’m in control of taking a massive deep breath and reminding myself that at that exact moment, within those four walls - I’m actually ok.
Maybe none of us can “fix” it, but the way I’m trying to look at it is that maybe that’s not our job, and that our role is just to get through it in the way that’s best for us.
I guess if I’ve learned anything from my mini festive breakdown - it’s that there is ALWAYS still something left for us to control, despite the times when it feels like it’s all gone.
The irony is, if there’s anyone reading this who’s feeling like I was before New Year, then you’re probably wanting to tell me to f**k off 😬..
Ah well.. you’re more than entitled to do so - but everything passes.
S**t feelings and s**t times, like days and seasons, they come and they go.
But our ability to control our reactions and actions will always remain. 🙌🏼