03/06/2026
"The Divorce Diet" is how I would phrase it looking at the photo of me on the left taken 8 years ago.
I share alot of memories as it's only on reflection that you can look back and put things into context.
Yes physically I looked great, the lightest I had ever been but emotionally I was broken and needed to reprogramme myself from my former life to figuring out my new independent version. I would train ridiculously hard to block out the pain, deal with the process whilst often having a drink in hand as my karma, relaxation buddy, coping mechanism.
I followed this pattern until COVID came along and changed my perspective. I relaxed about exercise, I learnt to feel content, almost relieved to be less toned, heavier and the start of the focus around exercise and lifestyle for my emotional wellbeing and social connections.
It's really hard when you've trained most of your life as people have expectations and percieve you in a certain way and it's sad to say that those times physically I was heavier and not as toned, some folk made judgements and commented on my appearance.
Last year I was in a similar position due to health reasons and it was also a turning point where I realised alcohol was my emotional crutch. June 2025, I felt and wanted to change. I no longer wanted to people please or hide behind the mask I carried at times. It has been a process, it has been hard work and tough in terms of soul searching and admitting a few home truths, but I am glad I have stuck to the programme.
Yes according to the scales I am not the lightest I have been, so please never go by the numbers on any health style journey, but confidence and health wise, I am currently feeling the best I have been in a long while and that's enough for me.
It's never too late and whatever stage of life's journey you're on, you can if you're willing to put the hard work in and you have a desire to change and make different lifestyle choices.
Sometimes admitting you have to, is the starting point. Trust me you may loose a few folk along the way, but it really is lifting when you start discovering your true self πβ€π ###