28/05/2020
CHANGING EMOTIONAL PATTERNS
Yesterday I talked about the process of changing your physical patterns. That how we move is the product of our past experiences and environment we have lived in.
On an emotional and behavioural level there is really no difference between the physical and psychological development process. Many of our thoughts and feelings tend to be an adaptation to the stress of the environment we grew up in. Survival is the primary instinct for humans, especially as infants when we are completely dependent on our parents. Love and attention are akin to food and shelter for a baby, so acting and behaving in a way that allows us to receive this is vital.
In this way we learn from very early on what we need to do or 'who' we need to be in order to get love and attention. The emotional responses to events we experienced in our childhood become so locked in that we actually believe those feelings are who we are. The problem is that when we grow into fully formed adults we still carry with us the unmet needs from our childhood and so project them into the world. We seek out what we didn't get as children, so someone who was ignored as a child may become super obsessed with how they look in an attempt to get this attention and validation from the external world.
When potential personal training clients come to me with predominantly aesthetic physique goals, I like to to dive deeper into their motivation behind that. Asking questions like, 'what's important about having a good body?, 'Why is it important what other people think of you?'
I have been there myself, as a bodybuilder dedicating my whole life into looking a certain way. Whilst I learnt a lot about the discipline and hard work required for building a physique, it never addressed the underlying emotional issues that I was carrying.
The solution
The solution starts with awareness, becoming aware of these emotional patterns that you have been acting on your entire life. Meditation practice, therapy or psychedelic plant medicines are all tools to connect to these past traumas. Seeing how emotional and behavioural programs got set into your being. Accepting all your feelings and emotions and finding a way to express them is a path to optimal emotional health and well being. Journalling is something that has helped me immensely, I have found the act of writing out my feelings very cathartic.
At the end of the day if we can learn to love and accept all the feelings we have, we go a long way into being our true selves. There are no 'wrong' feelings, and the rejection of any part of ourselves leads to unnecessary pain and suffering. The journey of spiritual growth and development can be an uncomfortable and messy one but ultimately nothing provides you with more love, joy, peace and happiness.
Sending you all love
Erros