15/06/2026
Let this be your reminder!
Both versions of me carry the same person. Here is the weird part, I’ve seen myself very big before and I can honestly tell there has been times when even still bigger, I felt okay about myself, because I knew I’m actively working on myself!
The picture on the right was taken in 2024. Even in this version I felt I was in one of my best shapes. Not because how I was shaped but I was in my active bulk phase and wanted to put on as much muscle as I can, and did!
Why I also was a long time in my bulk phase was because I have to do anything by myself. I’m talking no matter the weather, if I’m sick, not feeling well, bad days, feeling weak or just feel off! This was the version of me that carried 5 bags at once home from the grocery store, moved things, lift heavy etc.
I can also confirm that in my last bulk phase I was my biggest critic! I was harsh on myself and gave myself no room to be gentle! And even at the time creating picture or creating content, I felt I was in great shape.
Looking at my pictures now, I can definitely see the difference, which for the longest I didn’t! I started to really be very strict with myself and lean into my soft life that I live. Not just have it available but lean into it. I started treating myself softly also, which brings me a calm mind.
I stay consistent with myself. Food, work, mindset no matter if a good or bad day. I never ever make or try to come up with excuses.
