19/12/2023
𝐁𝐘𝐏𝐀𝐒𝐒𝐈𝐍𝐆 𝐅𝐄𝐀𝐑 𝐯𝐬 𝐄𝐌𝐁𝐑𝐀𝐂𝐈𝐍𝐆 𝐅𝐄𝐀𝐑
Oh my it’s been a ride…
I was a depressed, scared and lonely child, dealing with a depressed & addictive mom and an absent dad, being just me & my mom for a while. Lots of people came and went until she stayed with one and I was ‘grown up’
I had seen so many psychiatrist, psychologists & mindfulness coaches by that time, 𝐈 𝐰𝐚𝐬 𝐢𝐧𝐬𝐩𝐢𝐫𝐞𝐝 𝐭𝐨 𝐡𝐞𝐥𝐩 (𝐝𝐞𝐩𝐫𝐞𝐬𝐬𝐞𝐝) 𝐩𝐞𝐨𝐩𝐥𝐞 𝐦𝐲𝐬𝐞𝐥𝐟, 𝐈 𝐤𝐧𝐞𝐰 𝐡𝐨𝐰 𝐢𝐭 𝐰𝐚𝐬 𝐨𝐧𝐥𝐲 𝐈 𝐝𝐢𝐝 𝐧𝐨𝐭 𝐲𝐞𝐭 𝐤𝐧𝐨𝐰 𝐡𝐨𝐰 𝐭𝐨…
From moving out at age 17 & quitting school so I could earn a living, buying my first apartment at age 18, hospital in & out with my chronic illnesses (yes my body was done with the suffering I allowed myself) from longing to be a tv producer to becoming one at age 20 without education, from breaking up, needing to sell my house in the middle of recession, selling at loss, healed my chronic illness through food, studying natural food nutrition, diving deeper and studying TCM, Ayurveda, starting a foodblog: EerlijkerEten.nl -> to help people with the same issues and show the self healing capabilities
𝐈 𝐒𝐇𝐎𝐖𝐄𝐃 𝐔𝐏 𝐌𝐀𝐍𝐘 𝐓𝐈𝐌𝐄𝐒 𝐈𝐍 𝐌𝐘 𝐋𝐈𝐅𝐄, 𝐈 𝐡𝐚𝐝 𝐭𝐨
Only often I did so from a place of fear… I felt tension in my body instead of relaxation
While still working in the media, I started up a chocolate company: Ridiculously Good, a company that showed a different way, visualizing a self sufficient ‘Ridiculously Good Get Away’ to top it all off -> a healing community with retreats -> the safe place for healing, 𝙩𝙝𝙖𝙩 𝙬𝙖𝙨 𝙞𝙩!
Because I was at times operating from a place of fear, without me being aware of it. I was going over my fears because I KNEW I had to do it. The mind told me I needed that to survive, 𝘁𝗵𝗮𝘁 𝘄𝗮𝘀 𝗵𝗼𝘄 𝗜 𝘀𝘂𝗿𝘃𝗶𝘃𝗲𝗱 𝗺𝘆 𝘄𝗵𝗼𝗹𝗲 𝗹𝗶𝗳𝗲
Pleasing, making sure everyone is happy because then I would be safe, when no one was angry, no one would hurt me… yes a bit sad that I believed that, that that was my experience only I know I CHOOSE this life, this experience, it’s okay
𝐈 𝐚𝐥𝐬𝐨 𝐫𝐞𝐦𝐞𝐦𝐛𝐞𝐫𝐞𝐝 𝐈 𝐜𝐚𝐧 𝐂𝐇𝐎𝐎𝐒𝐄 𝐥𝐨𝐯𝐞 𝐢𝐧𝐬𝐭𝐞𝐚𝐝 𝐨𝐟 𝐅𝐄𝐀𝐑 𝐚𝐭 𝐚𝐧𝐲 𝐦𝐨𝐦𝐞𝐧𝐭
This story continues only the clue stays the same: 𝐃𝐨𝐧’𝐭 𝐁𝐘𝐏𝐀𝐒𝐒 𝐅𝐄𝐀𝐑, 𝐧𝐨 𝐥𝐨𝐨𝐤 𝐢𝐭 𝐬𝐭𝐫𝐚𝐢𝐠𝐡𝐭 𝐢𝐧 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐄𝐘𝐄, 𝐟𝐞𝐞𝐥 𝐢𝐭, 𝐚𝐜𝐜𝐞𝐩𝐭 𝐢𝐭, 𝐠𝐢𝐯𝐞 𝐢𝐭 𝐬𝐩𝐚𝐜𝐞 & 𝐥𝐨𝐯𝐞 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐢𝐭 𝐖𝐈𝐋𝐋 𝐓𝐑𝐀𝐍𝐒𝐅𝐎𝐑𝐌 𝐢𝐧 𝐭𝐨 ♡