18/06/2026
I had an unexpected breakthrough this weekend (can’t believe I’m sharing). 🫠
I went to an event this weekend carrying a lot of anxiety, fear, anger, and honestly… hopelessness.
For weeks, I’d been asking God for a sign that everything was going to be okay and got nothing. Just silence.
And because I didn’t get the answer I wanted, my mind started creating stories. Maybe the silence meant something bad was coming. Maybe I was on the wrong path. Maybe I was alone in this.
On day one, there was a meditation where we were asked to send love to people we care about, then people in the room, and finally people who had hurt us.
I wanted absolutely nothing to do with that.
I was angry and believe in consequences and karma.
I wanted to stay attached to the story of what had happened to me.
Then I remembered that I didn’t come all this way to stay the same.
Later that night, during an Uber ride, a song came on that has carried me through some of the hardest moments of my life. A song I’ve listened to hundreds of times.
It wasn’t on a playlist or a popular song you’d hear on the radio. It wasn’t even in English.
& Somehow it found me anyway!
It felt like my sign.
The biggest breakthrough of the weekend was admitting that a part of me didn’t want to let go or change.
Because if did then I feared my pain would be erased, unseen, and I wouldn’t get to be the victim anymore.
That’s a hard thing to admit.
Sometimes we say we want freedom, healing, peace, confidence, happiness, or a better life.
But a small part of us is still benefiting from staying exactly where we are.
If you’re feeling stuck right now, ask yourself:
What am I getting from staying here?
Because the answer might change everything.
And maybe that’s the sign you’ve been waiting for, too.
