01/16/2020
Behind the scenes // This, was one of the best experiences of my Krav Maga career. It reminded me of my Phase A. I took a beating, and it was rewarding as hell. I enjoyed it wholeheartedly and suffered through decades of training, failure and successes.
So many fu***ng times I wanted to quit. Many of those times I almost did. Let me be clear, I came so close to quitting that I had already made plans. And the fear of quitting and disappointing those who rely on me, who look up to me and those who care about me was a feeling that kicked me in the chest.
Beyond all that, looking in the mirror and loving who I see was the hardest challenge of my life. Right at that moment, anger raged in me in a way that I can only describe as necessary and Human.
Life is amazing and Life is fu***ng ruthlessly unforgiving. It’s part of being human - when you have feelings you can’t explain or like. Looking back today at those moments I remember that when I didn’t think I could pull through, at the same time I believed I could. How’s that for a mind f**k. I guess I was right about one of them.
