05/06/2023
This week I lost my shadow
Something that has always been there with me since I could remember. A part of me that I never really knew how much it made me whole until he was gone.
It's not often you have an animal you would almost consider your equal, almost. As dumb as you were, you were twice as brilliant at the same time. I never knew what I was coming home to lol. I know I complained about it, but really its why I loved you so much.
You challenged me everyday, in the oddest of ways. You prepared me to be a father. You protected me when I felt vulnerable. You pushed me to be more present. You were relentless, unwavering, till your last breath you fought. 15 years was longer than I could've asked for. And that's why this makes this goodbye even harder.
I never feared leaving home, because I knew you'd do anything and everything you could to protect the family, you were a soldier. I never knew how I would miss u rushing the door, until you couldn't anymore.
You were my partner, my opposite, and that is why you were the best. You were my dog, but truthfully you allowed me to be your human. I miss you buddy, I really, really, do. Nothing feels the same, it's all different, and that's ok. But it's still hard. I promise I'll get out of my head, I'll live life, and I'll try to be the shadow to my people as you were to me.
I love you nix
my perfect little buddy.