10/27/2022
Listen babeโฆbe unapologetically you.
For the longest time I have been told I am loud, opinionated, a lot, intimidating, and protective.
To be honest even hearing those words gives me a reaction because I thought those were bad things that I should hate about myself. Heck even still I am so hard on myself in moments I am down for those things. I have even tried to not be those things - I try to be quiet and minimize myself to gain acceptance of others.
Today, I choose acceptance.
I am loud and I am also outgoing and I love connecting with others. I love being silly and I love laughing LOUD.
I am a lot - swipe to read a quote that addresses that one.
I am opinionated, everyone has an opinion? and I am also very self-aware and I am very knowledgable.
I am protective and I love and care so deeply for those in my life I would truly do anything for them. I keep my circle small and I give those people my ALL. I care so much for those in my life that it doesnโt matter where I am at I will drop anything to answer a phone call, check in with them, go to their house, etc. and I will ALWAYS stand up for those people. I recently realized I give give give to relationships and I donโt always get the same back. So yes, I am protective, and I also give too much.
This one is a hard one for me...I am intimidating. I am SO hard on myself for this one because that sounds like an awful thing. Until I was told once by a counsellor that people tell you you are intimidating when they are intimidated by you. The counsellor questioned in what scenarios do you hear this comment - I said in school, athletics, career, and in the gym I am told my work ethic, hard work, and drive are intimidating. The counsellor told me โShai listen to what you just saidโฆthose are phenomenal qualities to have.โ
I am starting to learn and man is it a journeyโฆto embrace all of who you are, and be unapologetically you. You will always be โtoo muchโ for some people, too loud, too soft. Too this, too that. But youโll always be perfect for the people who need you and want you in their life.