05/08/2020
𝑻𝒐 𝒘𝒉𝒐𝒆𝒗𝒆𝒓 𝒏𝒆𝒆𝒅𝒔 𝒕𝒐 𝒉𝒆𝒂𝒓 𝒕𝒉𝒊𝒔 𝒕𝒐𝒅𝒂𝒚...
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I’m really upset with myself. Upset because the first thing I noticed about this picture was the little tiny roll of skin on my stomach. F*ck, I was livid. I work so hard on being confident and exuding this higher energy only to be reminded of my insecurities with one silly angle. That roll is NOTHING, minuscule, and yet here I was criticizing myself.
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When I was younger, when my body image was it’s worst, I would try and tell people that I felt ugly, gross, “fat”. That I hated looking in the mirror. The people in my life would laugh at me. “You’re not fat”, “You’re just emotional” “You care too much what other people think” and I feel like that lack of validation left a serious void for me as an adult. The thoughts in my head even writing this go back and forth ..
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𝘐 𝘤𝘢𝘯’𝘵 𝘱𝘰𝘴𝘵 𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘵.
𝘞𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘪𝘧 𝘱𝘦𝘰𝘱𝘭𝘦 𝘫𝘶𝘥𝘨𝘦 𝘮𝘦?
𝘛𝘩𝘦𝘺’𝘭𝘭 𝘫𝘶𝘥𝘨𝘦 𝘮𝘦 𝘣𝘦𝘤𝘢𝘶𝘴𝘦 𝘐’𝘮 𝘧𝘪𝘵 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘤𝘰𝘯𝘧𝘪𝘥𝘦𝘯𝘵 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘯𝘰 𝘰𝘯𝘦 𝘸𝘪𝘭𝘭 𝘣𝘦𝘭𝘪𝘦𝘷𝘦 𝘮𝘦.
𝘗𝘦𝘰𝘱𝘭𝘦 𝘸𝘪𝘭𝘭 𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘯𝘬 𝘐’𝘮 𝘴𝘦𝘦𝘬𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘢𝘵𝘵𝘦𝘯𝘵𝘪𝘰𝘯.
𝘍𝘪𝘴𝘩𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘧𝘰𝘳 𝘤𝘰𝘮𝘱𝘭𝘪𝘮𝘦𝘯𝘵𝘴.
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Well, I’m doing this because I value transparency, and if I’ve felt it I know I’m not alone in saying that body image can be a mothertrucking rollercoaster. And to remind you that your value is not determined by the space you take up in this infinite universe. I hear you, I see you, and I am here to validate you even if no one in your life ever has. That is my purpose. To empower you and to help you see your beauty. To be the person who doesn’t laugh at you, but instead helps to take off the distorted glasses of self perception you’re wearing and to trade them for rainbow lenses of self-love. ✨
