10/06/2021
⚖️🪨💊THE LOWEST POINT IN MY LIFE… (HOOKED ON PAINKILLERS)💊🪨⚖️
This post is hard for me to write...
As an online coach for others some people like to think that I have it all together…
The truth is that I’ve gone through some extreme adversity in order to become the person that I am today
I’m going to tell you about one of the hardest experiences I’ve ever had to go through
I’ve gotta go back more than 5 years to before I moved here to Alberta…
I wasn’t living my best life
💊Hooked on painkillers (opiates, called hydromorphine) after breaking my spine, heels, and wrist (all in the same night)…
I had been a full time drug dealer for 10 years at this point..
And had spent 5 years in prison…
It felt like I literally knew no other way to be able to earn money to buy food and pay rent other than selling that stuff
I was 25… maybe 26… I kind of don’t think back that far too much..
My home life was crap when I was a kid
Some of my earliest memories are just my parents being violent towards me (and that’s a bit of an understatement 😅)
But I was fvcking sick of that life and one way or another was determined to break free of the cycle of negativity
While I was injured I went to stay with my mom in the city she was living in
And she has her own issues that I won’t get into, but I ended up leaving with my suitcase and duffel bags (carrying them all), even though both my feet were still in casts and I had to use two crutches to get around (both heels had been broken 🤕)
I ended up going to stay with a friend while I made an exit strategy
I was feeling completely alone, worthless, stupid, stuck…. I definitely had doubts I’d be able to successfully separate myself from the only life I’d known for so long…
And it wasn’t easy…
But I focused on becoming a better version of myself in all the ways I could think of 💡
I had already kind of fallen in love with fitness and the mental benefits of an exercise routine and pushing yourself through things that FELT uncomfortable but were actually NECESSARY to develop
These are the HABITS I used to break out of that cycle
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