11/03/2019
Back to my training after a second round of lupus flare ups (joint inflammation and pain, stiffness, muscle weakness, physical and mental fatigue).
I have been through an emotional rollercoaster because of limitations that flare ups bring without any warning. One week I was training with full power, next week, simple daily activities were a challenge. Feelings of helplessness, deep sadness, fear, anger and frustration followed ... then I let my guard down. I had no choice. I realised that resistance was only bringing more pain. I discovered this humble place in me which brought me slowly to acceptance and peace. At this moment I am only feeling grateful for powerful lessons this condition is teaching me and for goodness that surrounds me. I will remain curious and open for whatever comes and welcome life in its fullness ... still learning... still growing. 🙏