16/10/2016
Practice from a place of clarity.....
I created this image about 3 years ago. Looking back it's a fascinating anthropological remnant of my yoga practice and commentary on who I was and who I would eventually become. The image of me in the contortionist pose held in hand by the older, heavier and beat up me, makes me want to yell WHAT ARE YOU DOING?! STOP THAT! I wasn't heeding my intuition when it whispered, "this doesn't make sense and I don't think my S.I. Joints are supposed to constantly ache". Instead I forged on preforming visually flawless shapes to demonstrate externally what I was told by the community were my yoga skills. I bought into what I was told an advanced yoga practice was, I bought in to one size fits all perfect alignment. I didn't buy religion, I didn't buy trends, or conformity, or the American dream, or the idea of the nuclear family, there had been almost nothing I had bought into in my life, save marriage, once. But one size fits all bio-mechanically unsound alignment based yoga-asana I bought into, and I bought that I could do every pose with perfection. I paid the price for what I bought, that pose in the photo is one of the poses that started the eventual cascade of miserable injuries, weight gain, and depression. Eventually I woke up and chose to find a yoga practice that actually worked for me which led me to the place I am now, content and injury free. There are no photos of what I do for practice now, it's not something I can capture in a photo. My teaching has changed too, drastically. I still believe in asana, it's an amazing tool if done in a simple way, wisely and with personal tailoring, I still do some of it myself. I have studied a lot so that I can teach my students how to make really good choices from a place of clarity, with less risk of injury. I hope to help them not make the mistakes that I did. I'm happier now than I ever was in that photo and I like that I have documentation of my journey.