26/02/2022
So I’m sitting at home today enjoying this lovely raining weather we are having right now reflecting on the week that has gone by.
It hasnt been a good one. I’ve been moody, defensive, angry for no apparent reason, I’ve snapped, felt sad, felt overwhelmed and lonely.
I’ve always stressed out about my kids and being in new places when in all actuality it’s me who has the biggest problem adjusting. Normally everything is quite good but this week it’s just been eh. I’m missing my friends, places and people I see wandering around at work.
My problem is I don’t ask for help. I don’t talk to anyone about what’s going on in my head and that’s bad. The people who love me and are my friends care and will help me through anything. I just have to ask for help instead of hiding.
I have to refocus and keep on moving forward. Things will get better I just have to be open to it. I start a new job soon, kids are doing great in school, I feel like my fitness is starting to improve now and really I am happy with how things are it’s just that pesky black dog that rears it’s ugly head every now and then.
So I’ll fight the good fight, not give into temptation of any kind. And keep on moving forward.