27/08/2025
The recent period of practice has been the most懈怠 (lazy and negligent) and消极(passive) since I began my yoga journey.
This caused by an outbreak of hives in April and the recovery from COVID-19 in May. Suddenly, I felt magical disappearance of physical strength, accompanied by an overwhelming sense of fatigue from my unusually heavy body. The energy that once allowed me to effortlessly float forward and jump back seemed to have been drained from my body. However, the habitual mindset towards practice in my mind completely mismatched my actual physical capabilities. My hips landed heavily on the mat time and again, leaving me both amused and frustrated. Even simple arm balance became strenuous, as the strength in my upper arms had completely vanished—they felt weak. Headstands were unstable, let alone slow-handstand push-ups—I could hardly believe this was still my body. After several attempts, I began to slack off and became消极怠工(negligent and passive). After stopping practice for a week or two, the side effect was a sense of unease and anxiety about the unknown state of my body. I wasn’t sure if it was due to the impact of hives and COVID on my immune system.
My satisfaction and joy come from yoga practice, and I must regain them through practice. Even if I have to crawl on the ground, I’ll keep practicing...
I changed my practice method, adopting the most basic and foundational approach, slowly reconnecting with my body. Regardless of whether this strength would eventually return, I decided to do my best. Three weeks ago, I began to feel some strength returning. I attempted to jump back into arm support but still needed to rely somewhat on pushing off with my feet. Due to the lack of arm strength, my body still couldn’t fully support itself. Last week, my strength improved a bit more, allowing me to barely manage the jump back. A few days ago, I felt my core and upper arm strength strengthening, enabling me to complete forward floats and backward jumps. Today, my magic energy has recovered about 70-80%, bringing a sense of joy as if I’ve regained something lost...
When we take for granted what we believe rightfully belongs to us, it may still leave us one day for some reason. Whether it’s people or things, it’s better to live in the present and cherish what we have now...🙏
