03/06/2021
{PART 1- written a week ago} “Parenting is so hard”. I’m sure you’ve heard that before, because. it. is. But lately I’ve really let my mind run away with it. I’ve really been letting my negative thoughts run wild. And as a believer in the law of attraction- what I’ve been affirming to myself has become my reality. Sam receives messages from me most days while he’s at work, usually giving a play by play of everything that has gone wrong, how little Tallis has been sleeping and me basically sharing all of my frustrations and emotions with parenting. “He’s never happy” “this is just my life now” “I hate it” “I can’t win” “Doing anything is a struggle”. Listening back to myself; I’m in full fledged victim mentality. I’m manifesting more of what I don’t want. Having this kind of mindset can give you tunnel vision to see the bad and only the bad. It can also make the bad worst because that’s where your focus is. And I’m sure Tallis is picking up on my energy too. I’m not saying to not share your feelings- but ultimately it’s our responsibility how we perceive and deal with situations. I’ve been feeling ‘in the thick of it’ and lost sight of all the good. So today I have decided to write a new parenting story- not a borrowed one that doesn’t serve me. One that I will read everyday. I will send less negative messages to Sam describing every detail of how hard my day is. I will start focusing on all the good things about parenting again. If you are not happy with your life, it’s up to you to change it.