08/07/2025
PUBLIC APOLOGY
This post is not easy to write — but it’s necessary.
I want to publicly apologise to Keegan Thornhill and The Indomitable Crew for the way I handled my departure from the team earlier this year.
I was in one of the darkest chapters of my life — emotionally broken, mentally scattered, & completely overwhelmed by grief. After the NABBA State Show, just two days after what should have been a celebration of years of work with Keegz, I left the team in a way that was abrupt, emotional, & deeply disrespectful to a man who had stood by me through some of the most defining moments of my life.
Keegz didn’t just coach me. He believed in me, supported me, guided me, & invested in me in ways that extended far beyond just training & nutrition. Over six years, we built something special, had won state & national titles, achieved countless milestones, and a bond that made me feel like part of a real team. I also had the opportunity to work within his team and facility as staff, which only deepened that connection. But in the chaos of my own pain, I made some poor decisions. I walked away without explanation and competed under a different coach just weeks later. And even though I won my pro card, what I did wasn’t right. I disrespected the man who built the foundation for that success,and the credit for everything he had done in building the athlete I have become was taken from him. I now understand the impact my exit had. I damaged his reputation and caused a lot of negative rumours about the guy who had always had my back not just in body building but when struggling with the challenging times of my life. I own that. Since then, I’ve had time to reflect — and I can honestly say: no one provides the level of care, support, and dedication that Keegz does, and I feel the absence of that depth.
Keegz had every right to cut ties. but instead, even after the hurt I caused, he reached out to offer support during yet another incredibly difficult chapter of my life. That speaks volumes about who he is, and what he stands for.
So, to Keegan: I am truly sorry. For the disrespect, the hurt, & the way I handled everything. You were right to expect more from me.
