30/09/2021
My most difficult client. Myself. Often too tired to move, disorganized sometimes, prioritizing her family over herself.
There are always more important stuff to do than your health!
When I was pregnant with number 1 I was so committed to be a perfect mom: waking up with the sun, going to the park for some fitness and fresh air, having healthy meals, swimming pool every day. Sleeping enough. Treating myself like a fragile vase. Bla bla bla. I had 0 children around apart from the quiet one inside. No need to say I failed to be perfect the very first week after giving birth. I still laugh when I think about that silly girl.
Baby Number 2… no sleep, no training, going daily to the 0 entry swimming pool that had 50cm deepest side. Constant guilt of not giving my first child 100% attention🙄 Eating sweets non stop to keep myself awake as I hate coffee and tea when pregnant. I gained so much weight and had a great post natal depression. Prosaic and few sessions at psycho therapy. Can’t remember that period clear but I did cut my food a lot to lose weight.
Baby Number 3. Constant headache and doctors run to identify why I felt so bad during pregnancy. I was tired and guilty and my life was all about giving birth, feeding and repeating it again. Surprisingly, after giving birth I felt so much better that decided finally to brake that cycle. I enrolled myself into a community boot camp.
Oh girl, that was the biggest shame yet the best decision! Non able to hold my p*e, I could not run even for a minute without loosing my breath, I was so weak I could not do a single exercise correct! I was so SO weak. No wonder as my diet was mostly carbs and little protein and minimum fat. I lost muscle mass! I could not be strong!
But training 3 times per week with other girls reverted me back to my intuitive eating and gave me strength and energy back. So a year of training AND eating healthy gave a good result
Baby Number 4. I already had so many small children around (5,3 and 1y.o) when I got pregnant that I was used to sleepless nights, nausea and mood swings. I no longer felt ashamed of myself and guilty. I remember I was so concerned of being 65 y.o when my baby would graduate her university😎 I had insomnia as well:) What about school runs? Will I look like her grandma dropping her off? Will I be able to play with my other children anytime soon? Will I ever feel confident talking to working women? Will I be able to find a decent job that would be worth of leaving children with a nanny or daycare? And my husband-is he still proud of me?
I spent 5 years of cleaning diapers, house, clothes and kissing ouchies. I felt so uncertain.
So I carried on with my fitness training. At least it made me feel confident while driving in the car as my back and sciatica wouldn’t hurt anymore. In fact I felt more confident about my own body again this time even being pregnant.
Post natal recovery was also different. I can’t say I was so energetic as my family was going through lots of challenges (husband lost his job). But I did not fall into depression💃
This time I grew, developed and recorded and studied so much:) no more Facebook browsing waste of time. I’m a professional again, yet an ordinary mom. Definitely not my best disciplined client but for sure the long term one😜
And I’m full of joy to share it with other women!
