08/09/2026
“Just as light changes the shape of shadow, so does my desire change the shape of my fears.
There was something so truly terrifying about allowing myself to go there with a woman, allowing myself to go there within me.
I felt a kind of fear that was almost deathly… like when I jumped out of an airplane or scaled mountains and dove to depths beyond 30m with one breath.
These fears awaken something ancient inside of me.
They tell me that I am moving from one state into another.
That I am literally crossing a threshold.
I am not the same woman I was before that night with her.
I am irrevocably changed.
I have tasted and lain in the lap of something so utterly precious and sacred that words will never quite do it justice.
I have well and truly entered into the pink paradise of my girlhood dreams.
A kind of jellyfish heaven that I saw at the aquarium the other day.
A kind of strawberry milkshake so sweet and creamy and child-like dreamy.
It is like a true homecoming that has nothing to do with identities or constructs or ownership.
It is a homecoming to ourselves.
A homecoming to womanhood.
A return to the Garden of Eden of our own imagination…
Our bodily forest of mysteries,
Our infinite oceanic depths,
So much yet to be discovered…”
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Thank you liefie ~ I am truly grateful 🫶🏼