12/08/2021
There we were, once again, going over what was said or not said, what had been done or could have been done differently. There was a knot in my throat as I tried to hold back the tears that often accompanied the conversation of this past offense. My husband on his knees asking me once again to forgive him and allow ourselves to move forward. I sat there in our bathroom feeling hopeless. So many years have past since that day, but I still remember it like it was yesterday. Looking back, I now think it wasn’t that big of an offense but at the time I couldn’t convince myself otherwise. But on that day something happened. I had a thought right in the middle of the turmoil we were experiencing. The thought was this: I can not forgive my husband and live miserable the rest of our lives or I can choose to forgive and begin to enjoy our life. Up to that point, we had had great moments but when that past offense would sneak up, all of our joy would dissipate. And that’s when I cried out to God. I choose to forgive but looked to God for the ability to do so. It was almost as if God was waiting on me to be willing to let it go. And that’s when his supernatural ability to forgive took over. Forgiving my husband on that day has been one of the most rewarding things I have done in our marriage. I’m so thankful we have a God who is able to help us in our weaknesses and gives us the gift of forgiveness. In marriage you will have a multitude of opportunities to offer forgiveness. Do it swiftly, without delay. It will be one of the greatest gifts you will her give yourself.