09/20/2015
Last week, I tried to prepare myself for this day...today is my Dad's birthday.
He's been gone for 2 years now, but this day and the day of his passing still paralyzes me...close to being catatonic. I fight it because I know there's so much to celebrate, but yet, this painful chasm in my heart threatens to open up and swallow me. I don't deny myself the sadness nor the grief...I let myself feel the sorrow and the loss. I cry and always wish what could have been...
I look at old photos and I call my siblings. Reminiscing, laughing and loving my family, made me realize Dad is gone from us physically...but, his legacy is very much alive in me, in my kids and my siblings.
To Dad ~ I miss your voice, I miss your hugs, your teasing, your generosity and your love for your family. I miss you dancing with Mom! I miss calling you when the kids are sick. Mostly, I just simply miss having you here with me....
I know it's 5 o'clock anytime you want it to be...so, have a wonderful time with Dr. G, Uncle Fol and everyone! Even Toby, Beavis and Moosie!!!