12/22/2023
This late fall has been one where I have been just waiting for the Lexapro to kick in. I haven’t dealt with depression and melancholia in a bit it but it’s always in the background waiting to rear its head. Thoughts like I’m bad at everything I do. Not wanting to go climb or be social. I haven’t climbed in a month
mainly cause of it. Consistent negative self talk. Anxiety. In a year full of grief since my therapist passed away it was sort of expected. This is the first time I have been medicated for it but as I turn 34 today it’s important to take care of yourself, especially when you get older. I’m going to be looking for a therapist in the new year and start that journey for myself again. I’m grateful for Sarah who has been so supportive these last few months. For understanding when the days are hard. I have been doing my self care routines. I have watched a ton of movies. Dug deep into photography. Thrifted a little bit. I’m ready to get back climbing. I’m making it. I’m feeling better. I’m thankful for y’all and also my climbing friends who I have met this year. My 33rd year had a lot of downs but the good thing is I get to keep living. I get to keep dreaming of climbing Half-Dome. I get to keep dreaming of getting a photo published in Nat Geo. It’s all gonna happen. I’m taking care of myself mentally now so that I’m physically ready for those challenges. I appreciate y’all. Have a rad holiday. Reach out to who you need to reach out to if you need help. ❤️🧗♂️📸: self portrait ()