10/15/2025
She's Ready
Last Thursday, I tussled with myself on whether or not to participate in an anthology sharing my journey to motherhood.
Part of me was like, "Girl, nobody cares. You're not a mother." 🙄
While the other reminded me, "Your journey is still being written. Your words do matter."☺️
One would think it wouldn't be a reason to doubt or have a hard time jumping in, but it was.
I know I'm not a mama, yet, so do my words really matter?
If my words matter, what can I share to encourage, inspire, to usher women to my Daddy on their journeys?
Like, who cares that I tried to help my Daddy help me only for Him to put a check in my spirit that was like, "Ha, play with Me if you want to."
Almost set on NOT joining the project, there was a calming, definitive, "Do it," which I followed.
Now, I'm writing my story on my journey to motherhood.
My title: Grieving an Empty Womb
I'll highlight my unspoken jealousy -- or dare I say ENVY-- of other mothers and how He has worked with me to shift my negative emotions, thoughts, opinions, and feelings.
I'll share how I honestly was going to help Him help me. I had a WHOLE plan that would have taken me to Houston TX 🫣
Chil', I thought He would be on board for MY PLAN because it made much sense to meeeeeee. 🥴
"Many are the PLANS in [ Ebony's ] heart, but it is the Lord's purpose that prevails," Proverbs 19:21 NIV.
Just know, His leadership and guidance are unmatched, top tier, sho' nuff no joke 😆
The title for the anthology is pending and will be shared soon. I'll be joining 7 other women who are ready, willing, and able to share their journeys, too.
The funny thing is, I thought this part of my journey would be silent, close to the chest, between me and my Jesus, one I talk to my Daddy about - privately.
I guess it won't be what I thought
"For My thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways My ways," Isaiah 55:8 NIV.
WHEW!
As I dive into this chapter, I can only - truthfully - lean into Him because ya girl can do it, but she can't do it. (Trust me, it makes sense lol)
"...for My power is made perfect in [ Ebony's ] weakness..." 2 Cor. 12:9 NIV