12/17/2025
I thought I’d reintroduce myself. Just a warning, this is pretty long lol.
I’m Nikki, in 2015, I started my weight loss journey at a whopping 325lbs by adopting a healthier lifestyle full of movement and not eating like an as***le. I had many wake up calls, but none of them prompted me to change like that one morning in May of 2015 where I woke up and decided that I didn’t want to feel that way anymore. I was (and frankly still battle with this) addicted to food, because food was the only constant in my life. I thought of food as my friend, and I spent every waking moment of my life wondering what my next meal or snack would be. I would eat fast food meals in my car to not feel shame, I would hide wrappers, etc. I was 23 years old with numbness in my left arm and my left leg, back pain, I probably wasn’t ovulating (no periods), I’d be out of breath complete with chest pains just standing there existing… I had many people try doing an intervention, including past bosses.
In June of 2015, as I was doing a clients nails, this client just so happened to be an NHP trooper (Nevada highway patrol). I remember telling her that I wanted to be a trooper, and she stated that “it won’t be easy, but it’s worth it”. I talked about my journey and all that I’ve done so far. I completed her service, she said “good luck, don’t give up”. Since then, I’ve held a variety of positions. I lost sight of my goal and dream for quite some time because it seemed overwhelming. I went from one extreme to the other, from wanting food 24/7 to being too afraid to eat… and i spent a good portion of 2015 eating a vegan diet of no more than 600 calories a day. Burnt out and not seeing anymore progress, I hired a personal trainer in late January of 2016. His name was Chris, he helped me gradually increase my calories and become more consistent with strength training. During one of our sessions, he mentioned that I should become a personal trainer…. And I kinda chuckled. Me? Be a personal trainer? LOL.
But….. in October of 2016, I purchased the NASM CPT course, and I started working for 24 hour fitness as a membership counselor. My entire life was spent in a gym, and I loved it. I was a terrible sales person, but I loved the environment. I eventually started a part time gig at Fitness19 (my home gym) as a childcare attendant, to be hired as a personal trainer there when I passed my CPT exam. I left 24 hour fitness in April of 2017, and started working more hours at Fitness19. I passed my NASM exam in May.
Fast forward to November of 2017, I had been working as a personal trainer already for a few months, I left that gym and I packed all of my belongings and moved to Arizona. I had $500 to my name and no idea where to start looking for work…. I tried LA fitness, anytime fitness, etc. I was getting denied and redirected many times… feeling a little under pressure and stressed, I applied to The Fitness Institute of Arrowhead, where I met Greg. Greg is the owner, and our interview went great… this was my first gym being a legit trainer (and not selling memberships, or pestering members to buy personal training sessions). I was SO grateful, the amount of knowledge and experience I gained in my 3 years of tenure is still unmatched in 2025. Although I didn’t appreciate it then, I do realize the weight of it now. Covid happened, and unfortunately…. Life kinda derailed from there. I started at Amazon, and ultimately working full time overnight and Amazon and trying to juggle training was almost impossible, so I stopped training. I was focused more on becoming a law enforcement officer than anything, so I just saw Amazon as a temporary position.
I fell into depression, and went from my leanest at 165 in 2020….to my heaviest in years, at 250, in 2021. I was still stuck at Amazon, incredibly miserable, and always in pain again. I never stopped lifting or working out, but the food addiction had come back full force. In 2022, I had a scary and really painful back injury that resulted in a shot in the butt, a doctor visit for potential surgery, and 2 months of PT. I was unable to really lift or do anything, so my weight was pretty stagnant. I was able to start pushing real hard in 2023 and thought I had a shot at finally making it, much like 2024 and of course 2025… but life had a different plan.
It has been quite a few years of ups and downs in terms of weight, more ups than downs unfortunately… but I’m closer to accomplishing my goal than I have ever been.
While I’m not going to go too far into detail about the last couple of years, I just want to prove to anyone that’s currently in the position I was in… that you’re human. You’ll have seasons where you’ll do great, you’re consistent on all bases, and you’re seeing results that just keep the fire burning. And of course, you’ll have seasons where nothing is working, you lose control, and you resort back to bad habits. Those seasons are not failures in and of themselves…. Failure is what happens when you give up entirely. Where you have one bad month and decide that living healthier is too hard and you’re fine just the way you are. Failure is when you run away from hard things because you’d rather have the instant gratification of comfort, so you sit on the couch watching TV after work eating junk food for the next 30 years of your life.
I have empathy, I know how it is….but I’m also brutally honest in the sense of: if you want it, if you want it to not be painful just merely existing…. You’ll do what it takes to change your narrative.
This lifestyle is not easy, but it most certainly is worth it.
-Nikki