12/10/2021
FAILURE. What does failure look like to you?
For many years, all I could see when I looked at pictures from this photo shoot was failure.
You see, 2 days prior to this I had competed at NPC Nationals and had {once again} just missed earning my IFBB Pro card.
There were many tears after this show.
When I booked this shoot I was dreaming of it being my โfirst shootโ as an IFBB Pro.
And when the day came, well, I wasnโt a pro.
I couldnโt really look at these pictures. I saw defeat. I saw failure. I beat myself up.
But today, when I randomly looked back through the entire portfolio, I saw them differently.
I felt bad for this girl. This girl who had just poured her whole self into prepping for this show. I was doing everything I ever dreamt of. I was competing across the nation, maybe not winning, but sure as heck on quite a ride doing it.
But, I was so hard on myself I couldnโt see the beauty in each moment. I didnโt fully experience it as I could have.
If I could go back, I would not change the outcome. I learned SO MUCH from failing at this show. (Or, what I thought was a fail) I learned how to pick myself back up and find a whole next level of me. I would have never found that level had I not failed here.
So, finally, after 5 years, I can finally look at these pictures and instead of seeing failure, I see a girl who was just about to become WHO she wanted to be.
We all have set backs. Life doesnโt always go the way we dream it will. And definitely not on our timeline ๐
But that doesnโt mean it wonโt still be GREAT.
๐๐๐ ๐๐ผ๐ ๐ด๐ผ๐๐๐ฎ ๐๐๐ง ๐๐ฝ. ๐ฆ๐๐ข๐ช ๐๐ฝ. ๐๐ข ๐๐ต๐ฒ ๐ต๐ฎ๐ฟ๐ฑ ๐๐๐๐ณ๐ณ, ๐๐ต๐ฒ ๐๐๐๐ณ๐ณ ๐๐ผ๐ ๐บ๐ถ๐ด๐ต๐ ๐ป๐ผ๐ ๐ฎ๐น๐๐ฎ๐๐ ๐๐ฎ๐ป๐ ๐๐ผ ๐ฑ๐ผ. ๐๐โ๐ ๐ป๐ผ๐ ๐ฎ๐น๐๐ฎ๐๐ ๐ด๐น๐ฎ๐บ๐ผ๐ฟ๐ผ๐๐. ๐๐ ๐บ๐ถ๐ด๐ต๐ ๐ฏ๐ฒ ๐บ๐ผ๐ป๐ผ๐๐ผ๐ป๐ผ๐๐. ๐๐ผ ๐ถ๐ ๐ฎ๐ป๐๐๐ฎ๐๐.
BUT, while youโre doing the hard stuff, donโt forget to appreciate the journey. Cause that journey is really the best part ๐