01/09/2021
As a kid I didnāt know I could watch my own mind.
So did whatever my mind told me to do without examining what it was telling me to do.
Whatās wrong with that? Big deal Cody. Whatās the point?
Maybe nothing. Maybe nothing is wrong with it, but for me it caused a lot of pain suffering. āItā meaning the unobserved mind. The mind that got me to do many unthinkable things. Things that came with many negative consequences.
All of which Ive taken full responsibility for. Things like drug addiction, alcoholism, physical altercations, handcuffs, manipulation, selling dope, home invasions, and plenty of other forms of criminal activity which Iāll save for different post. (You might identify and you might not)
However at 23 I was given a moment of clarity. I woke up, I became aware. I was struck sober.
I was able to see my life, and who I had become in a way I had never seen it before. For the first time there was a separation between me and my thoughts.
This shift in perception allowed me to finally admit that I had problem. That I was out of control and needed help.
In that moment I reached out to my brother and he led me to a path of recovery.
Iāve been on this path for a while now, and Iāve been able to connect with, and learn from many people just like me. People who had become slaves to their own minds but changed.
One of the greatest gifts Iāve been given outside of sobriety and that continues to help me is from an old mentor I met on this path.
He said ā Cody youāve got to see your mind.ā
It sounds simple and it doesnāt seem like much but itās powerful. It has the power to transform lives. It has the power to free you from your own mind. Itās a practice.
One way to practice it is to carry a notepad around and write down any reoccurring thoughts, thoughts that keep popping up. Thoughts from the past thoughts, from the present, and thoughts about the future.
Give it a try you might be surprised by what you find.