12/17/2025
“If the only thing you could control was your commitment, not the outcome - would you still choose to show up?”
Race 1/3 in Melbourne
Went in with no expectations other than I show up and have a good time. Honestly, showing up was 90% of the challenge - after Hamburg I wasn’t very keen on stepping foot in the roxzone again, but I’d already made a commitment to myself, my coach, and my doubles partners, so despite my doubt I showed up in training, got on the plane, and found myself standing under the Red Bull arch as they began the countdown.
I was in the second wave (my favorite), and since the course was pretty busy I decided I had to squeeze my way into the first 1/3rd for the start (I very much like hiding in the back). Sleds were rough, but ergs felt 👌🏽, and it was the fastest BBJ and lunges I’ve done yet.
I’ve created this narrative in my head that I’m not a runner (just a swimming gurly 🤪), and that’s something I really need to work on- if I want to race at the pointy end I need to trust myself to push harder on the runs and know I can keep it together on the stations. This wasn’t the best race and it wasn’t the worst race, but I showed up, and I’m proud of that :)
I asked myself a question these last few weeks - do I want to be the kind of person who chooses to keep showing up, even if they fail? And during the race and in the days leading up to it, I found my answer. It wasn’t the fastest time, or the best executed race, and it definitely wasn’t the best pictures 🤪 But it was where I found the most clarity - I like doing hard s**t, things that require me to give laser focus, that make everything else fall away. And doing hard s**t wouldn’t be that hard if you already knew you were going to succeed 👊
Keep pushing, and maybe it’ll work out. And maybe it won’t. No matter what happens? Make sure it’s something you love