04/30/2026
Sitting here in the ER since about 7 AM. The thing is, this morning, I got up expecting to do something simple - well, kind of simple - drive my wife to her first chemotherapy appointment.
We were ready for that moment (as ready as you can be). But like so many other times, life had other plans. And instead of chemo, we ended up here due to complications. She’s doing okay now, and I’m grateful…but I’d be lying if I said it didn’t shake me.
Because in moments like this, you realize there is nothing you can do for the person you love most, except sit beside them and stay. And that’s hard.
I can feel it setting in now - the fatigue, the soreness from this chair, the mental drain of just being here. And writing that feels a bit selfish to even say, because it’s nothing compared to what she’s going through. But sitting here, I keep thinking about a number.
28.
We’ve been together 28 years. And we’ve already been through so much. Different storms. Different battles. But every single time…we faced them together. And that’s what this is. Another battle. Not one we asked for, but one we will face together - again.
And here's the thing…it’s not just us. It’s you too. Grief. Loss. Addiction. Cancer. Illness. Injury. Adversity shows up in all of our lives at some point. And when it does…you don’t get to choose the storm. But you do get to choose how you show up in it.
Because real strength isn’t built on the easy days. It’s revealed in the hard ones. When you’re tired. When you’re scared. When you don’t have answers. That’s when you find out who you are.
So, if you’re in a storm right now…you don’t have to have it all figured out. Just hold on, ride it out, and don't ever lose hope. You see, we don’t get to choose the battles we face. But we do get to choose to keep fighting. And as long as we’re still here…the story isn’t over. The end isn't written.
Watching her rest now, sitting back and contemplating life. I guess this is exactly what Faith Beyond looks like. Staying - with faith, holding onto hope, even when those things are hard to come by. I know there's been a lot of prayers in our home lately. But the best thing is - we are "Still Standing."