08/19/2022
This is a warning that this post is going to be long and hard for me. I’ve been in tears writing this for hours. This is by far the hardest thing i have had to do. In November, Bruce received orders to Korea after a lot of fighting, ugly ugly crying, and denial that i was not going with him, i decided i would stay here. Giving up what i had here was never apart of the plan so i abandoned the idea of me ever going. As everyone knows in march i was diagnosed with Hypothyroidism and still currently fighting for answers on other things. Being diagnosed put alot of things in perspective for me. One being if i stay here, I’m here without my husband who is by far my only support system besides my mother who needs to not have to worry about me. So i started the process with EFMP in july, totally thinking that i would not be accepted and denied Korea. Well, i have been approved as of August 10th and we are both headed to Korea, we will report sept 12th.
Let me just say that this has been the hardest 8 months of my entire life. I was fully prepared to leave my husband so that i didnt have to leave my girls behind. Some of you girls have been in my life for over 5 years and you are every bit apart of my family as i hope i am yours. I have cried happy and stressed tears about every single one of my girls and their growth as a athlete and a person. You all are so loved by me and i hope that every time i saw you, you felt that. My heart has been so full having every single one of you in my life. So as you can imagine this news is bitter sweet. I feel like I’m leaving with unfinished chapters in my life and it’s really hard to swallow right now. There are feelings that i can not even put into words. My emotions are all over the place. I’m sure everyone has a lot of questions and alot of things to figure out now. If i can help in anyway please let me know. I have decided to do virtual lessons and I’m here for those who would like to do virtually. For those searching for hitting and pitching instructors, please make sure that they stay current with teaching. That they are applying more than what they were taught but actually going out and doing the research and preparing you for what you need as an athlete not the cookie cutter mold that they want everyone to look like. Every athlete should look like their best version of themselves. Please make sure that your pitching instructor teaches Internal rotation AND they actually know and understand these techniques not just googled it. There will be signs that they don’t know what they are doing, please look for them don’t be comfortable and accept it, this is your athletes future. Shop around till you find the instructor best for your daughter. With that being said, I’m always ALWAYS here to help and i will always hope to be apart of your life and watch you grow even if only in the background. Lessons will finish August 30th as i will need to be out of the building and most of my items will be shipped to Korea. Please don’t let this be the end of me in your athletes life as i will always look and check in from time to time. I’ve never experienced heartbreak quite as big as I’m experiencing right now. I hope everyone understands and again if anyone has any questions or needs anything please let me know!! I love you all and i will always be a message away ❤️❤️
