06/04/2022
FAILED TO FREEDOM: my fitness journey.
⏱Part of me wishes it had been easier.
🤷🏻♀️Part of me wishes I didn’t have to struggle so much...for so long.
Part of me wishes I didn’t have to feel like my life was out of control where food controlled me, rather than me being in control. 👇🏼👇🏼🤭
Where I didn’t have to avoid looking in the mirror because I felt guilt and shame. 😭
I wanted to do more, I really did. And believe me I tried.
But one day...I remember feeling enough was enough. Like I wouldn’t bully myself anymore, I wouldn’t avoid doing what I knew I needed to do.
I needed to show up...and this time for me.
To end the insecurity, the feeling of “being comfortable” so I could be fulfilled.
Freedom from the guilt and shame
So I did.
I looked online/at my gym/asked my friends.
And I got a coach/trainer.
I knew doing it on my own wouldn’t work.
I already tried that a bunch of times.
It got me nowhere.
This coach showed me a process which could not only work but be fun.
Thank God, because otherwise I might not have stuck with it.
I got in the gym. Learned the weights. Learned to show up strong.
Learned how to eat where I enjoyed myself and got healthier at the same time
That last one was crazy to experience but it happened!