16/08/2026
There was a time in my life when the energy I exuded from my Catholic faith was certainty and confidence about being RIGHT rather than curiosity, humility, tenderness, mercy or compassion.
In Part 6 of my Being Catholic After Deconstruction series, I share how I was drawn into Catholic apologetics for a big part of my young adulthood and how that both formed me and began to set me up for my eventual deconstruction.
As someone who believes that the interior life develops in stages, I am grateful for that season of my life even though it was full of emotional immaturity and insecurity.
This was the season I first fell in love with the Catholic faith and Church. But what I loved was more of my own (and others’) projections and ideas about what the Catholic Church needed to be rather than what the Church really was/is.
Mature love requires an integrated lover. I think I am only now beginning to be ready to learn what that means for my relationship with the Catholic Church and Catholic faith.
If you resonate with these excerpts, I invite you to read the full post in my newsletter. (Link in bio)