10/05/2026
Yesterday, a dear friend told me, “You are a live wire. There is no mediocrity with you. There is no room for inauthenticity.”
Her words pierced me because they described my true self so accurately, and yet I grew up rejecting this truth about myself because it seemed to make so many people uncomfortable when they drew closer to me.
This trait that so defines me made me feel unloveable. Unknowable. It was a huge part of why I felt so alone as a child, a youth, and a young adult.
But yesterday when I read these words, I felt something different. I felt a deep recognition and acknowledgment. I felt my inner child perk up and say “Hey yes, that’s me!” She was now no longer ashamed of this trait. She beamed at me.
Then this morning, the same friend made me cry in the midst of my morning stroll with this Mother’s Day greeting (i.e. the post above).
God is reminding me through it - “Ann, you’re home. You’re finally able to see yourself the way I see you and be at peace with what you see. You’re finally able to experience the unique beauty I have bestowed on you and receive it as beauty.”
Even now as I type these words I’m crying. It’s been 17.5 years since I prayed and asked God to help me see myself as He sees me because I had realised that I did not know how to love myself.
It’s taken 17.5 years to be able to truly receive the ability to behold myself, see myself, and be happy with what I used to reject about myself.
Happy Mother’s Day to me as the mother of my inner child!
Thank you for your insight, your words, and above all, your friendship and presence in my life!