13/03/2022
The person I was 10 years ago, actually has a very small vision and narrow minded. My top priority was my family (not that is not my priority now). Everything I do I do it solely because of my family , the business I chose it was for the family, because I didn't like to work for others, I was lucky to earn some good income so I could spend most of my non working time taking care of my family, cooking (I love to eat lot of carbs, processed food and desserts) , going to market, ferrying the kids, house chores, travelling but I know there's something missing in my life. I wasn't happy nor grateful because I don't really know myself and what I wanted. There were no mission and purpose beside being there for the family. I tried connecting myself spiritually but I just couldn't understand what was my purpose then and I felt very empty inside. I'm sure many of the mummies feeling the same way.
In the last 10years , I've also learn a lot. I make a lot of mistakes in my life, I went through a lot of trauma , marriage failure and business failure all at the same time and of course depressed because of all that. Learning those lessons at a late age was tough as i was sort of protected and well loved by my parents when I was younger. I was not equipped with the forecoming challenges that i have to face. It was the most difficult moment for me 😅🤕
10 years later now, I see myself as a happier😋 and at least more peaceful state🤫 I know. I learn up Yoga because it helped me and I wanted it to help others too. I used to love going out a lot, not that I don't enjoy the fun of going out but I also learn to be alone and connect with myself internally. I've also found a great mission to coach others to be on healthier lifestyle, having a better eating habit and more active lifestyle myself while earning a meaningful income from there and learning something new everyday.
I've learn to better connect with my kids, I still love them very much and will always be there for them. They understand my situation much better now and they will always be my moral support. Sometimes we always look at our setbacks like the end of the world , but its actually a great teacher to us.