01/09/2026
…i tell people how important sleep is, yet lately my own bedtime has been creeping later and later.
I know I’m better when I’m in bed by 9.
Reality? More like 9.40.
Not exactly scandalous 😂 but apparently knowing and doing are still two different things for me too.
I also find it much harder to stick to my own training and routines now I’ve got two young boys.
I can write the plan.
I know exactly what I should be doing.
Then real life happens.
A friend has also asked me to do a 5km open water swim with him in November.
My first response?
“I don’t have enough time to train for that.”
Except deep down, I know I could find the time.
The truth is, swimming continuously for 5km scares me a bit.
Apparently even coaches can dress fear up as “I don’t have time.”
Here’s a harder one to admit…
I’m still wrestling with the self-belief required to properly build the Reignition Movement™️ into the business I can see in my head.
I believe deeply in what I want it to become.
But when doubt creeps in, I find myself retreating towards fitness.
Because I know fitness.
I’ve spent 15+ years building that evidence.
Reignition requires me to step into something new before I have the same evidence that I can make it work.
And finally…
I still compare myself to other 46 year olds.
I’ll see someone who’s built a bigger business, achieved more or just seems further ahead and catch myself thinking:
“What the f*ck have you been doing, Mike?”
I genuinely thought I’d have grown out of that by now.
Apparently not.
I’m sharing this because I think there’s sometimes an assumption that coaches have somehow figured themselves out.
I certainly haven’t.
I’m still figuring out fatherhood.
I’m still figuring out what I want parts of the next chapter of my life to look like.
I still doubt myself, compare myself and occasionally hide behind excuses I’d probably call someone else out on.
Maybe being 46 isn’t about finally having yourself figured out.
Maybe you just get a little better at noticing when you’re bullsh*tting yourself…
…and deciding what you’re going to do about it.