07/01/2024
THE HARD TRUTH
I didn't write no New Years post, not even anything for Xmas.
I haven't kept up with my socials, or even cared to show face.
And the truth behind it all is, I wanted to but I sadly couldn't....
When I thought about what no.4 child in our household would look like, I assumed it would be the same as before. Been there, done that. It honestly never once crossed my mind that it would be as hard as it has been. And I don't use the word "hard" lightly, or ever.
This precious little soul I have brought into this world has definitely taken its toll on my time, unlike any child I've had before.
You see with Isla, I had it so good. I never realised until now just how good...
I worked full time, I even ramped up my business. I took on 7 new clients the month I gave birth. I ran a full 2 day bootcamp when she was only 4 weeks old, strapped to my chest, and acquired another 4 clients post bootcamp.
We easily shared caring for her and she just slotted straight into the life we had already built.
But this time it has been so different.
I made a conscious decision many months ago to pull back from running my business full time and focus on my pregnancy and my babies.
And Jonah's presence earth side has certainly reminded me of that decision, and my conscious choice to embrace my feminine and fully accept my role in motherhood, not even making it possible for me to return to my Coaching business at all yet after 8 weeks.
His daily tiny cries are so sad on our hearts. We have been so used to such chill babies, and this little dude is still trying to find his tiny groove in our big world.
The mental experience for me throughout my pregnancy and post has been different to ever before, and it has given me plenty to reflect on, and Jonah has given me lots of feeding time to think about what direction my life will go in now as an entrepreneur.
2023 wasn't a fabulous year.
Not for me, and not for many.
I didn't kick ass and smash goals.
I didn't have a huge list of all the things I accomplished this year.
If anything, it was the total opposite many could say.
But I did safely home birth another amazing soul into this world, like a fkn boss might I add...
I have achieved things that only my husband and kids will truly understand...
But for 2024, there are changes coming.
When... I can't say...
That really depends on when Jonah is ready to let me back into the business world.
But keep an eye out for some huge shifts that are coming.
