06/04/2020
Hey my people I hope you are all well❤
Sorry I haven't be as present on my page as I should be. To be honest I have been quite unwell. My mental health has gone down hill since being out of work. It has been hard to seek help as you know everyone else is in the same boat and struggling, so you don't want to bother anyone. I have a family history of mental health issues and I don't handle change very well on a good day, so despite feeling possitive at the beginning anxiety has taken over my life. It did feel like it came out of no where and started with a panic attack that put me in hospital. Turns out trying to deal with it on my own wasn't the best option. It's a balancing act, and i have very supportive group of family friends and professionals now helping me get on top of it. Depression and anxiety can go hand in hand, but are still very different at the same time. I don't feel depressed, all though I do feel a little hopeless at times. I Feel Anxious and curling up at bed at night seems to be a big trigger. Unlike depression exercise can trigger an anxiety attack. So the normal treatment for depression may not help in the treatment of anxiety. My heart rate will sit at about 90 to 100 beats per minute at rest. This then makes me feel quite uneasy and nauseous. I am uncoordinated and shakey and i find it hard to concentrate, so doing the most simple of task can be difficult. My appetite is almost gone, but i eat because i know i have to, plus it adds to the shakeiness and weakness if i dont. Talking about it does help, but it is an up hill battle that im hoping to win. Medication is an option, but i would like to try and avoid it where possible.
Please if anyone its feeling unwell seek help. There are options at most doctor surgeries to do phone consults. I have most of my treatment over the phone.
Plus if anyone has any techniques ect to help I would greatly appreciate it. I have turned off all news reports on negative updates on Rona, I am doing yoga, breathing exercises and meditation. Plus lots of hugs help especially from my boys❤