05/01/2022
2021 was the year of multiple failures.
It was the year where I cried, like a lot.
I would say it would be around 3-5 times a week as the year started to wind down towards the end.
It was the year where I overworked, over-worried, over-stressed and tied all of my self worth to the productivity and growth of my business.
It was the year where I wrestled daily with my self doubt, where I broke down 2-3x a week during one dark period, where I almost wanted to completely give up trying (3 times).
I only felt worthy when I went viral with a video, or I had a huge surge of new followers come into my socials.
I only felt worthy when I hit a high number in my income for that month (and then back to feeling like a failure when my income was in an ebb).
I only felt worthy when I was of service to others as their coach, but when the clients finished, I was back to feeling not good enough.
Not a sob story — I’ve done the work to move past all of this and this is what I’ll share now coming out the other side:
• Failing is better than not trying. As I write my goals for 2022, it’s literally a bigger extension of the 2021 goals I had written. At the start of every new year, I used to always write the same goals but 2022 was the first year where I had actually moved forward, aiming for higher and much bigger.
• Surround yourself with people who ground you back down to Earth. My favourite phrase is “Keep going, it only takes one moment for your life to change”. I don’t think I would’ve been able to keep going if it wasn’t for a strong support network who pushed me when I couldn’t do it myself.
• Dissolve a belief, quantum leap. The moment I detached my worth fully away from my business, my energy shifted. I started to attract abundance in all sorts of ways - free beachfront stays, client enquiries out of nowhere, receiving consistent money to make content… so. much. fu***ng. goodness.
I want to share one last thing I did in 2021, but I’ll save it for when the offical day comes, which will be on the 22/02/2022. (Meant to be!)
Vanessa ###